It turns out time didn’t tell exactly what I expected to hear, but that’s just life right? I mean that is what everyone always says, so why exactly is it so difficult to understand? Oh, just listen to me blabbing along, thinking out loud, carrying on for myself, while you sit there probably confused out of your mind by what I’m saying. So let’s take you back to what you may have missed dear notebook.
Months ago I assumed by only problem was telling my best friend that I had become ‘closer’ to Luaay. Sadly it seems that that relationship was all too ‘rocky’ from the beginning.
Two weeks after saying yes and agreeing to a date with Luaay, a friend of his (Ahmed) sent me a message, it was a recorded conversation between him and Luaay.
Ahmed: what do you mean bro, you totally scored with Nazrana…
Luaay: do I look like I give a sh* t?
Ahmed: then why are you even with here? You must have some interest or else you really wouldn’t just string her along for a joyride. What’s the deal here?
Luaay: you what Ahmed, loss the topic bru
Ahmed: listen, I’ll drop it if you fill me in on what’s going on here.
Luaay: this doesn’t concern you ahmed!!
Ahmed: chill would you! The only reason I’m asking is because there must be a reason for why you’re messing with Niraz’s sister…
Luaay: exactly! Wow, a round of applause to you Ahmed, you seem to have cracked the code! Welcome to reality bro! (Ever so sarcastically said)
Ahmed: Niraz hey?
Luaay: well wasn’t that obvious?
Ahmed: you better get one thing straight here, it is not Niraz you’re speaking to right now! You better be clear on that. And I didn’t think you were low enough to mess Naz around just because you have some petty issue with her brother!!
Luaay: petty? Now you listen to me because I suggest you take a walk since you don’t know what you’re talking about!
Ahmed: I know what I’m saying. The only cocky prick here is you!
Luaay: since when does whatever happens to Nazrana bother you?
Ahmed: since you’ve forgotten she’s human too.
Ahmed:just give it up Luaay, its not worth it man…
Luaay: but its so worth it Ahmed!!! You don’t even know what that Niraz did to my cousin Ahlaam, yet you stand here defending those Ismails!
That was it, I couldn’t take any more of it. I may never be able to listen to any more of that voice note but I felt broken. Actually, I felt more than just that, I felt gutted, it all made me so upset. Could someone really be so cruel? Someone I had known as a good friend for ages had shown me the darker side I quite frankly wasn’t prepared for.
I was even more amazed at how Luaay acted ever so sweetly and went along with his plan. After witnessing this for two days, I was fed up, I blocked Luaay and avoided all contact with him. The only thing left to do now was confront Niraz about Ahlam, who surprisingly, I had never heard of before…
I had to find a way to ask my brother without him suspecting anything, but he would find out easily. Niraz was always a step ahead when it came to things like this. It was as if he had people devoured to filling him in on everything he may have felt necessary to know, and after already being hurt by Luaay, there was no way I was going to let my brother have a go at me next. So I decided on doing the next best thing.
I figures he might have been more understanding and willing to fill me in on this story, I however, didn’t plan on being completely honest with him either. There were certain things he just didn’t need to know regardless of how close we had become, and this was one of em.
Later during the very same day, I went up to nazeer and asked him if he knew who ahlaam was and so yet another convo began…
Nazeer: why are you suddenly asking me this?
Me: I just heard some stuff…
Nazeer: tell me what you heard
Me: well nothing really besides that there was something between the two of them…
Nazeer: thats all you need to know then
Me: really? Don’t treat me like a little kid, clearly something happened
Nazeer: just don’t worry about that please
Me: I don’t get this
Nazeer: there’s not much to it,chill man
Me: doesn’t sound like it
Nazeer: you’re not going to give this up are you?
Me: nope haha now spill!
Nazeer: fine, Niraz dated her about a year ago. Happy now?
Me: so thats it huh?
Me: there must be something you’re not telling me here
Nazeer: look Nazy I don’t even care,nits not even my story to tell…
Me: urrrgh!! What is it with you people?!!
I definitely was going to et anywhere with this, but I wanted to know so badly! Maybe Ahmed would tell me what he knew. Wait, I could just listen to the recording again right…? Wrong! I deleted it in a moment of anger. Smart move Naz!
This was all becoming a bit much, maybe all I really needed to do was speak to Ahlaam. Who knows, I might just manage to get the story from her…
I am sooooo sorry for disappearing for so long. Many changes have taken place, but I’m back now!! Looking forward to sharing Nazrana’s story with you all. Hope you enjoy…